Shoe gremilin traps !

Yes OK I am back tomorrow….Roll on December the first!
………….Please excuse while I rant
..I have this over whelming feeling like is the quiet before the storm...not with escorting so much, just I have this fear of Kissmass on the way that all hell will brake lose and work will bring me down again.

……..where was I ?….Ohh yes I might have had time out but doesn’t mean I haven’t been working my tail end off….Think I should really have a holiday in the new year to recharge again…
I sound all over the place today! Woke up so late as I got in at a stupid time in the stupid morning(normal work not fun) managed to deal with some business on the phone, OPs phones to tell me my flights for the next week…and could only find one shoe, of my favourite round toed running around in pair…here shoeyy shoeeeyyy…..think the shoe gremilin is back stealing my shoes this time rather than stretching them (think I need shoe gremlin traps for my flat..ummmm there’s one for the wish list!)
..and even had time to meet up and have Sushi with a Sushi virgin this afternoon…might be out this evening and meet a few girlies for a girly drink and chat ,but think I will need all the sleep I can get for the next few approaching days!..
….Dam just remembered that a few sites still have old info up, so it looks like I will have to deal with that too now I am back ….and really need a new photo shoot to update the Gallery (that is fit to bursting why did I do a monthly gallery!!)…need to deal with and put in some place some ads for next year…need to fix my advertising budget…have a meeting with my lovely web guy…catch up with some other escort girlies….meet with some advertisers…need to get supplies…more towels...more bottles of water…more bottles of bubbly…new pair of shoes…new coat and a pair of size 7 gloves
…..and so it all begins again…….. sucking me back in!
Still cant find that shoe…..!!@??

A compass, a map and a dibber!

Where am I …goddess I really don’t know this week! normally I am a good life navigator…Ok I can cope with a compass, a map and a dibber …so you would think I would be able to stay on course wouldn’t you?
Nope I am still wandering around the wood in my head in circles!
..Seven books later and my eyes hurt ..

Three: Mills & Boon…
Two: of a dragon planet other world Sci-Fi…
a American collage campus murder drama and one large door step sized multi saga, mildly trashy romance novel…and then to top it all off a trip to the cinema (was fed up with toting books around for a while) to see Sky High but then at the last moment ended up watching Oliver Twist instead! ‘Sir I don’t want any more’….
.….Getting more up to date with all that’s on my plate at the moment (Honest I dont need any more on my plate) and think I can see some light at the end of the tunnel, but do seem to be attracting more varied normal world jobs my way, which is flattering but in the same vain quite disconcerting.
Was pondering on Yoga woman’s only retreats over the past few days, but it seems they have all packed up their mats for the winter in Europe and US seems the only option …
only I don’t want to go that far…
so instead in True Eleanor fashion for a plan B…
——-Replaced——–
Yoga: for Soya yogurt .
The woman’s only: for a copy of Woman’s Own.
And the Retreat part :for a treat of Soya ice cream and raspberry bits!
…chilled out but not quite right…think I need time for a weekend spa break when I get all the weird jobs sorted out

This girl hates to shop

Not back till DECEMBER…….but while I was away…

Had a strange person this week say that they thought it was best for me to go straight!…like I was gay or something and it was a bad thing
..think they meant Escorting was bad …yeh right!
like I was straight and normal in the beginning!…just shows some peoples ignorance I suppose..

Well think I just have itchy feet and the flying is just not cutting it any more ,think its time for a new path and something I have never done before…just need to find something I want to do that looks fun…have thought more and more about being a Driver, but have the feeling I would get itchy feet fast …could go all girly and do Styling?…nahh done that ..might just grab my board and take to the slopes…could be a chalet girl for the winter?…nahh think im too old and sensible for that.
Aerobics instructor?…..definite no that would drive me nuts all that time in the Gym….
Florist? well at least I don’t mind the morning wake up…
Oh I don’t know I seem to have gotten to an impasse…think I will read for a bit till motivation hits…

Tried shopping the other day in Harrods and the rest of Knightsbridge to at least try and cheer me up ..got to lunch time, bought nothing, meet up with a few friends, who nattered on till I sloped off ,decided to walk home and along the Thames just wanting to be out and in the country or a ramble….really needed to do my wardrobe up date but really hate shopping...yep that’s right, I am a girl that hates to shop...there I said it ..to let my woman’s side down…I am sorry girls but un less I am in the mood… all I tend to do is go in and buy what I need and get out as soon as poss.

Naked in front of Big Ben!

Sunday 16th October
Wow you would have thought from all the get well messages I had received that I had died or something! touching and a nice gestures, but a bit surreal...hope to be back on line in December...fingers crossed
Ho Hum…only been a few days and so much has happened !Unfortunately I took time off to rest… only to fill my time with more work! ..crap...I should have guessed that I couldn’t slow down!...had been to my GP as I had a horrible feeling I was anaemic again, only to find I had lost too much weight and there was I thinking I was doing OK ..

I know …I know… Im going to get ‘’I wish I had your Problem ‘’from well meaning by standers...But hell… if your intolerant to every food stuff that’s bad for you, don’t feel the need to eat and are soo busy that you forget or don’t have time… that you can pass out and knock yourself out, which could be very dangerous if your up a ladder or on a boat like
I was last night...you tell me now you wish that would happen to you,…

I tend to get this from my family who are all overweight and have diet problems...for flips sake if your going to eat a three course meal at nearly midnight, drink to excess ,snack in between meals and eat off others plates, when they have left food and have finished …what the hell do you expect! then they complain that im skinny and that they are jealous…sorry but I don’t find that a compliment!

GP told me to sleep and gave me sleeping tablets to try to knock me out, as my body clock and energy wont let me sleep and been told to eat more...its not like I don’t ,I do snack as well but as I cant eat junk I burn it off tremendously fast ...great ..it was like going to see my mum…!
Ok I did know I had lost a little weight (constantly 8 stone dropped to 7,11..)but I don’t normally so I wasn’t too worried but I should have guessed with the amount of work I had been taking on..

Well last night was fun, I had an event job on and I love being paid to do nothing! ..yep you heard me right …nothing…well
OK I was being paid to keep still like a statue naked, while being on a boat sailing up and down the Thames ..Was coming to the conclusion that I must have some of the weirdest jobs going...its been said before by family and friends and no no one expects any different of me …
Gave me a kick to Pass the houses of parliament in my birthday suit!…
...but was thinking that it probably wasn’t the weirdest…cant think what has been off the top of my head ,but the dressing a fish on a bicycle as a Christmas tree has to be up there with unblocking pop stars toilets!...Last night as fun as it was and so much for me trying to slow down on work..!! this tends t happen a bit but, ended up with three job offers that night alone !!!..and no not escorting before you ask… one for a modelling in a magazine launch, One to be in a new music vid and one for a high profile sports stars party!

Great that’s all I need more work .. I shouldn’t be complaining as a friend has said you ‘’lucky cow’’ but its sods law and soo like waiting for a bus! Isn’t always the way that when your down and need it nothing comes along!...will probably turn them all down when they come in, as im not really in to the spot light thing ,seen it far to often while adjusting them so to speak, to see what damage and problems it can cause way too much to want to fry under one!

I can just image what it is like to be famous ,all sounds well and good to start with but at the end of the day im not surprised if the feeling is a bit like escorting the highs,the lows the paranoia and head stress and trying to please everyone…do feel sorry sometimes and want to give them a hug when off stage or set they are barraged by fans that pester them and all they want is time to chill out from the stress! OK they get paid well, I suppose for the compensation of the job taking over their life, but if you don’t have the time or cant escape to enjoy it ..its got to be a pain…

Can remember back stage at a concert a while back… that a musician had been sound checking and waiting around all day from flying in very early that morning, after having to be smuggled in to the dressing rooms with a barrage of security …only to be cooped up for hours in there to go on stage and come off after a couple of hours…only to be pestered by this huge woman who had worked herself in to a frenzy over how much she loved him… you could just see it in his face, that he had no idea who she was and all he wanted was to sit down, but like a true pro signed what she wanted ….only again to be ushered off to a whole group of fans that where grabbing and screaming at him ..

All I could think was you poor sod you look like you could do with a hug! all you probably want is to get out of here for some sleep as he looked like he deserved some well earned sleep! And I know Its going to be hours before they whisk you off to a secure hotel room, where you will feel like your caged, afraid to go out and paranoid over who’s a real friend and who’s just sucking up for the fame and what they can get out of you...talk about the mother of all head fucks, its not as if in that position you could hide the fact from people when your so much in the public eye and escape for a bit! At least as independent escorts we have at least some say in our clients, where they don’t really have a say in their fans….

Bumped in to a good friend that I haven’t seen in ages today and said she was envious of me for making a go of everything I set my mind too...great now well meaning envy…(on top well of people feeling sorry and protective for me… Ok this is all weirding me out a bit)….I did reply that I always would research first and only go ahead if I thought it was in my capabilities…think its me being organised that helps and the optimistic view on life even when it goes pare shaped...every thing always happens for a reason even if you cant see it at the time...at the time you think shit my life is falling apart...and then you turn around in a few months time and think ahh if that hadn’t had happened I wouldn’t have met/done/learnt whatever… My whole family are so pessimistic it hurts...I must have drawn all the optimism from them!

…think the sleeping tablets are helping, but I have snapped them in half as they tend to knock me out for too long ..have never liked taking pills at all ,haven’t had so much as a cold in three years! so haven’t had to even take paracetamol in a while...not sure what the hell they would do to my insides…like they say you body should be your temple and to me, mine is.

Hell I don’t mind if others smoke ,drink or do drugs in any shape or form ,to each their own and if that’s what they like good for them…I just cant fill mine with toxins, I feel terribly guilty for doing this to it (sleeping tablets) as soon as my body is back on track ,im off the nasty little things...did try a herbal niteol but it only just slows me down and my mind races that’s the problem with my high immune system it tends to fight off everything!..

Think its time to spend some well earned time in a super market and fill up a trolly...then eat it all and fall asleep…well its doctors orders!...not that im very good at following orders thank goddess I didn’t join the military...too bloody minded I think...Im a red head after all, no one makes me do anything I don’t want to do…

No bookings and no bounce

...till further notice…
The email of the month to all my clients at the moment…..
Im terribly sorry but I will have to cancel our appointment
Due to several different personal reasons I am no longer working or taking any bookings at all till further notice.
Sorry to disappoint, All the best Eleanor

That’s it !....I cant cope at the moment as life seams to be conspiring against me, Its all going from bad to worse this week. The fact that I have been working independently for a year, doing other jobs solidly as well, my week off was the first time in 12 months that I have truly had time without the phones to annoy me, it has bought about some serious change. I need Time out...think im more exhausted than I thought maybe that’s what’s wrong?
Now I am worried and stressed and don’t want to pass any of my stressful self over to my clients, so respectfully I am taking some much needed time out...will still blog for a bit until I decide what to do next….But I am no longer taking phone calls, answering emails or taking bookings in any way for the forcible future….

Just thought I would throw this in here, as it was going to be a post before I became reflective…..We know everyone at one time will get the wrong end of the stick,and everyone sees and reads things differently right? But had a comment recently from a well meaning chap ‘’The demand, understandably, is high. I don’t understand why you think people scrapping money is somehow off putting. If somebody would save the little money she has in order to meet me I would be completely flattered.’’
This was as to regard to a previous post that I said in my Blog…I had said along the lines of that, I though that guys scraping money together was off putting…I real should have put that in context… that week I had been pestered by younger men who wanted me to see them for less than my rate, as they could not afford it ...Then had a regular client complain that he was a student (which he never said before) and had spent all his money seeing me and had no money to by food for the week .Then to top it off a 15 year old teenager that said he had saved up his pocket money and wanted to see me...!I felt bad that I seamed to be attracting people that really shouldnt/could not afford to see me!

The ‘’off putting’’ was not directed toward my clients that save up as a treat to themselves.But to the fact that I was causing hardship and distress to the clients ,when they could not really afford me… am I marketing wrongly? ...I don’t know why but I was feeling that if I am not attracting the right sort of clients (and some children at that! Who get a firm NO I don’t think im suitable for you email) I started to think maybe I am sort of a bargain basement escort! ...and no escort would think that’s flattering in anyway surely? I know it was slightly irrational, but thats the way my train of thought was at the time.....

Its all getting a little too much! I cant seam to keep on top of all the emails to my site , pms from different sites and the 5 hotmail accounts let alone the texts and phone messages with and without numbers…the appointments that don’t call to confirm, when I have turned down others for that day…I give up…

Please check back to my site in about a month for further information if you wish,
All the best, Eleanor x

Smelling all fruity!

What a wonderful afternoon …not…Monday 10th

Just as I thought my week was pants it just got bloody worse...goddess. family huh!...Love them to pieces but why cant normal folk get their act together...I might be the black sheep of the family that doesn’t have a steady job and jets off when I want but really my life is far more stable when it comes to the crunch.
...Just as I thought life was getting on a more than even keel, my main boss pilot wants me back on his Miami flights, as the new girl is ‘’as useful as a chocolate fire guard’’ so I am told....really don’t want to do the long flights at all...never know what family drama might break out next and need me to fix it ..just call me ‘Eleanor’ll Fix It’...getting a bit sick and tired of bailing them all out quite frankly when all about me are losing the plot.

Well a new job might be the answer…?Still thinking on the wardrobe/personal assistant job which would take me away for a year…is getting very tempting...just to up and ‘POOF’ gone in a puff of smoke...mind I could stay in the UK as a friend as just offered to pay for my lessons to get an HGV licence to drive an artic for their company!...cant see myself as a truck driver my self ..don’t think my feet will touch the pedals! can only just in a transit!
…Ok cant run away from everything, should really stick to it for a bit...goddess Im indecisive recently! Should give myself a good talking too(delaying tack ticks here) ..Might just do that after I down load more music to my new wish list pressie…while sitting in my new Kimono and smelling all fruity!

Stupid O’clock in the morning…

Now all I need is the Car to go with it!...yeh like thats going to happen!!
Bit late because all went weird and my blog page was down ill and would not pop back up till it had some genteel encouragement...!

Just when I thought being back was all good when the mother of all plane lag hit me yesterday,you would have thought by now I would be used to it but ..no...im now wide awake at a stupid time,need to be up early and to top it off have just seen the mail I have got in my in box! mostly appointments, Some crap,Some Spam,Do I want Viagra....no… but wait for it whats this? here we go again…!..Please join my agency mails…Ahhg...except that it seams to be a changing …
Its like they don’t like the stigma of being called an agency anymore, so are now saying they are a company that takes commission off the first booking or...(and this is a new way of putting it) …’’take an admin charge off of every client first for the introduction! and they only work with independent escorts’’...you what??????
??? So what your saying is you’re realy an agency,that sounds like you want to be recognised as dating agency then?...sorry but if your taking a cut from introducing a client in anyway …you’re an agency plain and simple !!!
If you are give or facilitate a percentage to a person or company for an introduction that doesn’t make you independent surely??. I don’t get it ..most of us that are independent do so because its easier to fit in with our daily lives and because we do and earn better that working for an agency on the whole, that’s why most of us are independent ..
So why would we want to work for an agency, surly we would have done that in the first place so why the emails…I give up ..think I might just do a standard email that I can send to the all when they pop up once a week…
Have a horrible feeling I have missed a few incoming appointment enmails(had about 50 nthat all want an answer sa soon as poss)...opps im in for it as soon as I turn on my phone in the morning…wait for it …

Severs me right for taking a week away think im going to pay for it big time ..and to top it off not only has my blog on my site gone down but it has taken my extended gallery and calendar page with it!.. wonderful servers me right for up dating …K.I.S.S…Keep it simple stupid seams to apply..

Ho Humm…cant seam to sleep…wonder if it’s a stupid time to go to the twenty four hour Tesco to stock up ?...might just have a hot chocolate and see if that helps ..zzzzz...nope still awake…great ..might spend the rest of the morning programming the newest edition to my girl gadget family ..here iPod iPod…..

California..yeha baby!

A girls got to travel and that’s what I did, all the poor people that have to travel commercial I salute you, it was nice to meet you all...even though I couldn’t sleep but got to catch up with a lot of movies, you got to love in flight entertainment!
California baby ye ha, Met some crazy people and loved every minute of it, just what I needed .Cleared my head a bit, mental fog all blown away with time to reflect, but now too relaxed to do much…cant win… totally chilled but all my get up and go has got up and gone!

Highlights: The weird and wacky products in the supermarkets and deli’s ,spa treatments and walks roaming the streets to catch the sights!…

The bad points: Having to stand in night clubs in high heels because of the lack on seating!(poor toes!)..weird women in shops saying I smell like their mother or grandmother! And electronic toilets that seam to flush while your still sitting on them, like they are possessed by some cheeky little gismo ghost!

love the crazy Americans… I had so much fun and even managed to behave myself nearly didn’t make it but I did …despite the yummy guy I sat next to on the flight back…Ok I did lose any amour when he mentioned the two month old baby back at home with the wife, (despite the fact he wasn’t wearing a ring, bad boy! )..did put my plans for a mile high fling, firmly out the widow without a parachute …

Back in ol’blighty safe and sound but after such a long flight, like normal I slept like there was no tomorrow, woke up dozy and in dire need of food…ah sofas back I see… as flat mate seams to have cleared me out of food, while I was away so supermarket here I come?...nope too tuckered out where’s that take away menu? Been soo good now need to indulge and be bad to make up my quota! ..OK I will do… after the 43 emails I have to get back too that is!...think I need another nap!!! My phone will have to wait till tomorrow for some attention..zzzzzzzzzzz